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Sunday, December 2, 2012

The Spirit of Advent -- Day 2


"Nativity" by He Qi, China

“O Come, O Come Emmanuel” #114
Text: Henry Sloane Coffin       Tune: VENI EMMANUEL

O come, O come Emmanuel
And ransom captive Israel
That mourns in lonely exile here
Until the Son of God appear
Rejoice!  Rejoice! Emmanuel
Shall come to thee, O Israel.

O come, Thou Day-star, come and cheer
Our spirits by Thine advent here
Disperse the gloomy clouds of night
And death’s dark shadows put to flight.
Rejoice!  Rejoice!  Emmanuel
Shall come to thee, OIsrael.

Music has always been at the very heart of my faith practice.  Although today I am a preacher, there is no sermon that has ever moved me more than the contemporary American composer John Adam’s Christmas oratorio, El Nino.  And although I often write and lead prayers for our congregation, there is no pastoral prayer that has ever transcended for me like the words of the hymn “Be Thou My Vision” that Rob and I sang together with our friends and family on our wedding day.   Music is the language my soul speaks.  And I can think of no other time of year that music speaks to me more than during Advent.

An Advent Wreath
If I were to pick a theme song for Advent, it would have to be “O Come, O Come Emmanuel.”  In fact, many churches have been using this hymn as such since the 19th century during their Advent worship services, singing verses 1 & 2 during the first Sunday of Advent, verses 3 & 4 the second Sunday, verses 5 & 6 the third Sunday, and verses 1 & 7 on the last Sunday.  The text, based on Isaiah 7:14, reminds us all that Advent is a season in which we wait and watch for the messiah, while the ancient and haunting character of the melody, based on an 8thcentury Gregorian chant, perfectly paints the meditative and hopeful mood ofthe season.

The word "advent" is not church jargon for what the world calls “Christmastime;” it has its own distinctive dark and hopeful beauty that is typified by this hymn.  Down South in the land of sunshine and warmth, the cheerful chaos of our culture’s Christmastime stands in stark contrast to the authentic spirit and mood of Advent as it is still lived out in the Church.  Even so, Advent and our world’s “Christmastime” don't need to be in competition with each other, though they often can be.  No Christian needs to dump Santa, Rudolf, and Frosty the Snowman in order to keep the sanctity of Advent!  You might find, however, that Advent in the Church becomes a respite from Christmastime in the world.  I know that when my calendar is packed with parties and my budget is blasted by gifts, when my family is bickering and I’ve burned or scarfed every dessert in sight, I know that I can step into Christ’s Church, and find quiet peace and joy in the spirit of Advent. 

What is the spirit of Advent?  I can’t really describe it, but I hear it in the words and the melody of “O Come, O Come Emmanuel.”  I heard it as I walked alone one dark and cold night through the snow in Harvard Yard, with my boots crunching beneath me, and with my wet nose tucked behind my scarf.  I felt it when I was 8 months pregnant one Christmas Eve, a time when I was waiting like I had never waited before, filled with hope, fear, and new life.  I’ve seen it the starry night sky, like the one that shone down on the shepherds and wisemen so many nights ago.  I've practiced it with you when together we've prayed as a church family in waiting for what has begun, but is not yet completed: the Kindom of God -- the place where all are recognized as kin, where the “ransom captives”are set free, “death’s dark shadows [are] put to flight,” every tear is wiped away, peace reigns on Earth, justice is free for all, and love is the only rule we know.  And until that day arrives, we wait in Advent hope.


Friday, November 30, 2012

Welcome Advent -- Day One

Beginning on December 1st, we will post a reflection or meditation for each day of Advent. Think of it as an on-line Advent Calendar, helping your mark the days of the Advent season. 




Welcome to Advent, what may be my favorite season of the year. It’s funny, because growing up I wasn’t aware of it at all. The Congregational church I grew up in paid no attention to the liturgical calendar, except for big holidays like Christmas and Easter. My parents, one of whom grew up Methodist and the other Reformed, didn’t seem to know about it either. It was only when I returned to church after many years away, and began attending a different Congregational church, that I suddenly encountered words I never heard before, at least in a Protestant church. Words like Advent, Lent, Epiphany and Pentecost among others.
And now I love them all – with Advent a particular favorite. Unfortunately, I think most in the church would rather ignore it and move right into Christmas. After all, the Christmas decorations have gone up and the carols begin playing on the radio before Advent even begins.
But I love Advent. Instead of merry elves and presents under a tree, it focuses on counter-cultural things like stillness and waiting, preparation and discernment. It’s a time to focus on the inner journey – on getting ready. It’s a time of gestation – waiting and preparing to give birth to new life. And it’s a time of darkness – the darkness of the womb; the darkness of the night sky that makes it possible to see the guiding star.
And perhaps I resonate with Advent most deeply because it reminds me of my own time of waiting to give birth to my daughter. Looking back, it was a time of paradox – there was so much to do to prepare: clean out the spare room to make space for the baby furniture; buy things like baby blankets and little clothes (so cute); learn what to expect, how to change diapers and breathe with the contractions; go to doctor’s visits and ultrasounds, find the right hospital and car seat. A whole check list. But at the same time, at another level, all Steve and I could do was wait – and wait – and wait – for nine months for the baby to be born. Nothing we could do would make that time move any faster.
And when the time finally came to give birth, it wasn’t easy. It was painful, and hard, and messy, and scary. But from those labor pains came this miraculous gift, and three lives (my husbands, my daughter’s and mine) were transformed – made new.
Later I realized that it was during the time of waiting that we prepared inside – prepared our hearts and minds and bodies – for the change that was coming in our lives. If it had happened too soon none of us would have been ready for it. (Not that we felt ready, mind you. Yet it’s amazing, looking back, that in fact we were.) New life means change – and we need to prepare – and make space – for it to happen.
We need to welcome Advent. We may want to just skip right over it – move on to singing Christmas carols and playing with the new baby, but we’re not ready yet. And so we prepare ourselves by doing with expectant joy the tasks of the season – buying presents, putting up decorations, trimming the tree, baking the cookies. But at the same time – we all have to wait, to prepare inside and learn the lessons this time of waiting has to teach us – about patience and perseverance, taking risks and listening to angels; about the difficulty and pain of birth, and the joy of new life.

Prayer:  God who gave birth to all creation, help me to creatively wait in this time of Advent gestation, so that I may be prepared to give birth to the holy in my life and my world – when it is time. Amen.

Wednesday, November 7, 2012

Why Not Tithe?



Scripture
Bring the full tithe into the storehouse...and thus put me to the test, says the Lord of hosts; see if I will not open the windows of heaven for you and pour down for you an overflowing blessing. Malachi 3.10
A Word of Hope
Through the course of my ministry I have attended many spiritual retreats, participated in many Bibles studies, and have been a part of countless church meetings. One of the questions often asked, as a “get to know you” activity, is an invitation to share one's favorite passages of scripture. That is a very hard thing for me because there are so many Bible verses that I love. However, if I were to share the one passage of scripture that has changed my life the most it may well be this passage from the book of the prophet Malachi.




I remember the first time I consciously heard this passage. It was shortly after I arrived at the Cathedral of Hope. I was participating in a New Member Class and Bill Eure was teaching the class about stewardship. He quoted the scripture from Malachi and then explained how he had begun practicing tithing and what an impact it had made in his life. The lesson was so genuine, so heart-felt, that I decided to do what Bill had done, to practice tithing.

It is now six years later and I have never regretted that decision. This one passage of scripture, and the practice of it in my daily life, has changed how I feel about money. Now, if I am honest, I often wish I had more money. I frequently have to limit the things I buy. Sometimes I have to postpone the plans to do something for my home or yard. I have to carefully plan for major purchases. Those are the realities of our living, but since beginning the discipline of tithing, I have consciously given away more of my resources than ever before in my life, much more than just ten percent. What I have discovered is that God is true to God’s promises.

I am happier now than I have ever been and while there are many reasons for my happiness, I believe that one of the most important reasons is that I now spend my days in gratitude. I have shifted from being fearful of what I do not have to being grateful for what I do have. I am learning, day by day, week by week to be a generous person. I am learning the deep and profound joy of giving. In short, I have been set free. Money no longer owns me and I am grateful to God for that.

So, why not try it? What do you have to lose? After all, it is God who says, “Test me in this!” Why not try bringing God the full tithe, a full ten percent of your resources, and see what God does. I am convinced that God will do exactly as God promised and will open the windows of heaven and pour out blessings upon you.
Prayer
Holy One, you are so very generous to me. Let me be wholly yours so that I might be a blessing just as you have blessed me. Amen.
Devotion Author
Rev. Dr. Jo Hudson
Rector & Senior Pastor

Thursday, November 1, 2012

Remember


As I watch the news this week, I’ve been thinking about the importance memory. Twenty years ago this year, Hurricane Andrew devastated South Florida. My husband Steve and I were living in South Miami at the time. The images of homes destroyed, roofs and walls ripped off – covered in blue tarps, trees down so that a once lush landscape looked barren and dead, and piles of debris two stories high that lasted for nearly a year remain vivid in my memory. A time of darkness in so many ways, that felt like it would never end.

I remember being without power for weeks. The sound of generators going off and on throughout the night, making it difficult to sleep. Being stuck because of trees blocking the road. Eating canned food. Sweating in the August heat. Listening to the radio, the voice of local TV weatherman Brian Norcross being simulcast – the only station that remained up for the whole event. His voice a lifeline as the wind howled, and the darkness was all around.

When another major storm – like Katrina, or now Sandy – happens. Those memories come rushing back in. Watching the coverage of Sandy, Brian Norcross (who now does hurricane coverage nationally) was on the TV. Steve came in from another room, saying, “that’s Brian Norcross.” He remembers too.

Hurricane Andrew 1992

Hurricane Sandy 2012


Memories connect us. Our memories of riding out the storm and it’s aftermath connect Steve and me, and others who lived in South Florida at that time. My memory of what happened in that storm also connects me now to those affected by Sandy – another community experiencing the same kind of darkness. My memories give my prayers special intensity, as I pray for them those in the Northeast – for their safety and healing, but also for the blessings that can be found in the midst of such difficulty: the fellowship of neighbors, generosity and courage of strangers, the sense of a community pulling together, small comforts that make a huge difference like water to bathe in or a good meal, and the sight of a billion stars in the night – visible for once without city lights filling the sky, and the incandescent joy and gratitude when an electrical company truck (sometimes from a community many states away) is finally seen in your neighborhood and power is restored.

Memories remind us what really matters – and to be thankful for all our blessings, no matter how small, as we remember a time when there was no blessing too small to make a difference.

Memories also give us hope. It took time, more time than we would ever have imagined, and taught us patience we didn’t think we had. It took lots of work and support that came in many ways, but South Florida survived and rebuilt – though it has been forever changed by the experience. In another community devastated by such a story, the process has been slow, but New Orleans has come back in many ways – though there is still much to be done. I know that the Northeast will recover and rebuild as well. In our faith we call that resurrection.

Memory matters. When we celebrate communion – it is a meal of remembrance. “Do this in remembrance of me,” Jesus said. Because memory connects us. We remember that through a time of great tragedy and loss, a time of pain and death, a community huddled together in the dark, but Jesus came to them in their darkness and brought them out into the light.

As we go through the liturgical year, tracing the story of the life of Jesus and his followers – Advent waiting, the joy of birth at Christmas, the surprise and revelation of Epiphany, the expectation of Palm Sunday, the coming together of community on Maundy Thursday, the despair and death of Good Friday, the emptiness and loss of Holy Saturday, the wonder of resurrection on Easter, the sense of empowerment on Pentecost – as a community we relive that cycle that is life and we remember. We remember that resurrection happens. Death, destruction, despair are a part of life – but they do not have the last word. And through this reliving of the life and story of Jesus Christ, we remember that even though homes may be destroyed, our true home is in God, through whom all things are possible – even resurrection.

Memory connects us. It spurs us to be the hearts of compassion, the hands of support and healing, and the voices of hope to others sitting in the darkness. It is a hallmark of the life of faith.

When we forget, or lose the ability to remember -- it is a tragedy even worse than any storm. It is devastating to individuals and families dealing with Alzheimers or similar disorders. It is equally devastating to communities. Where now is the sense of common purpose, connection, and strength we were blessed with in the dark aftermath of 9/11?

But God can redeem even the loss of memory. There are blessings, and moments of grace always -- if we have the eyes to see them. And perhaps Sandy, tragic as it is, may bring with it the blessing of rekindled memory, an antidote for the spiritual Alzheimers that has gripped our nation for too long.

God of life, new life, and beginning again – we thank you for your Spirit at work in those who bless others with their courage, their compassion, and their support in times of trouble. We thank you too for the signs of hope, the voices in the darkness, the small blessings, that we hold onto until the lights come back on and we can see again. And we thank you for memory, that connects us, across space and time, to each other, and to You. Amen.

Sunday, September 16, 2012

"Welcome" - Sermon of September 16, 2012

Because so many of our folks were absent from worship today preparing for the Pride Parade, I was asked if I would post my sermon for today which relates to just that event. Though we most often follow the lectionary, this week we looked at the lectionary gospel reading for next Sunday, a week early.





Sermon: Welcome (Mark 9:30-37)
September 16, 2012
Rev. Christine Ng

         “Then they came to Capernaum ...”
            Let me set the stage for you. After travelling on the road through Galilee, they came to Capernaum and went into a house. Jesus, his twelve closest disciples, all male, and others who were following him. The house probably wasn’t very big, so crowded with guests.
            And when they were inside, Jesus turns to his disciples and asks: “’What were you arguing about on the way?’ But they were silent.” I imagine them hanging their heads, a bit of a blush forming under their tanned middle eastern skin. If you’ve ever been caught passing a note in grade school, you probably know how they felt.
            But just as my teachers usually knew what we were doing when they called us out, Jesus must have known as well, because with a heavy sigh – not reported in the text but that I always hear when I read this story – with a heavy sigh he begins to teach about precisely what they had been arguing about:  Which of them is the greatest. And everything else he stays in this text relates to that.
            Jesus sits down – the formal posture of teachers of that culture – and he calls the twelve, his closest disciples around him. The twelve were now in school. Weary from the journey, I imagine them sitting around him in a small room. And Jesus says to them: “Whoever wants to be first must be last of all and servant of all.” After all their arguing, I’m sure this is not what they wanted to hear.
            The Greek word translated here as “servant,” is diakonos, from which we get our English word “deacon,” and which later came to refer to a person in ministry. But in the Greek of the day it meant someone who served meals, and the “servant” of all would have been the lowest servant on the totem poll – the servant who had to serve even the rest of the servants, and got to eat only what was left after everyone else had eaten.
            I imagine the faces of the twelve when Jesus said this. A little sour perhaps, or puzzled. They didn’t understand – in the Gospel of Mark they never understand.
            So Jesus needs an example, a visual aid. So he takes a child. That’s all it says in the text: “he took a little child.” But it can’t have been that simple. There wouldn’t have been any children near him, surrounded as he was by the twelve. And given the likely small size of the house and the room they were in, it is unlikely there were even any in the room.
            So Jesus probably had to get up, step through his disciples and go into another room or perhaps even outside to find a little child, pick her up and carry her back into the room, through the disciples, to sit back down among them with her in his arms, and say: “Whoever welcomes one such child in my name welcomes me, and whoever welcomes me welcomes not me but the one who sent me.”
            Welcome, welcome, welcome, welcome. He says it four times – in case they missed it the first three. It’s all about welcome.
            They were arguing about the wrong thing. It’s not about hierarchy. It’s not about who  is the least and who is the greatest. In the kingdom all of that gets turned upside down so the one who is truly the “greatest,” the Messiah, the Anointed One, hangs on the cross. Instead, it’s about welcome.
            Welcome – which in many older versions translate as “receive,” as in “receiving” a person into one’s home. Acting as their host. I like the word “welcome” used in most modern translations, but I also like the older word “receive” – which carries with it the sense of something given that we receive as a gift.
            So Jesus is saying, when I meant that those who would be first must be the servant of all, I meant all – even treating one such as this little child as a gift, or an honored guest welcomed into your home that it is your responsibility as host to take care of.
This is one of those texts that we tend to see as just one of those “cute” stories about Jesus and children. But this isn’t a “cute” story at all. The disciples would have made the connection between the “little child” and the “servant,” because the words in Greek were very similar, but also because children at the time were nonentities. The lowest of the low. Someday they would be something, someday they would be productive members of the household, if they lived to adulthood, but in the meantime they were on par with a slave – and indeed, calling an adult a “child” at that time was a serious insult.
            But here was Jesus, teaching that welcoming this nobody was the same as welcoming not only Jesus himself, but God. If the disciples faces showed confusion or distaste before, I bet that now it was more like jaw dropping shock. In-con-ceiv-able.
            It’s not about being the greatest, Jesus said, at least not in the way you mean. It’s about welcome. It’s about hospitality. It’s about encountering the stranger, the other, and literally and figuratively accepting them into your heart and your home. All of them, every one – no matter who they are or where they are on life’s journey.
            I like the way St. Benedict put it, the founder of the Benedictine Order where Christian hospitality is perhaps the most important spiritual discipline they practice:  “All guests who present themselves are to be welcomed as Christ.”
            Jesus’ radical teaching in this text has broad implications for aspects of our life as Christians and as a Christian church. For example, this suggests that one of the most important ministries we do is to welcome people at the door of our church. Why is it, then, that in this church – like most churches – it’s so hard to get people to sign up to be ushers and greeters? And yet it’s a simple thing everyone can do.
            Writer Kathleen Norris writes about a nun with Alzheimer’s who, everyday, insists on being placed in her wheelchair at the entrance to the monastery’s nursing home wing so she can greet everyone who comes. She’s not certain anymore about what she is welcoming people to, but the practice of hospitality, of welcome, is so deeply ingrained in her that it has become her whole life.
             This teaching also suggests that our ritual of friendship, where we get up and greet everyone gathered here in friendship and Christian love is one of the most important elements of our worship service – not just what someone in another church affectionately called “hugging time,” or something that takes too much time out of “real” worship or makes us go past noon. Given what Jesus says to the disciples here, what more important thing do we have to do than to welcome Jesus, to welcome God in? Because as Barbara Brown Taylor wrote, “encountering another human being is as close to God as “we” may ever get.
            But I am struck in this passage not just by what Jesus said, but by what he did to model this welcome. He went out, reached out through the disciples huddled around him. He didn’t just sit in the middle of the circle and make a vague hand gesture inviting a child to come to him. The verbs are more active than that. He “took a little child,” so he had to find one first – out beyond the circle of his male disciples – possibly out beyond the room or even the walls of the house – and in brought the child in – back past all those disciples who were raised to believe children were nonentities.
            Welcome for Jesus meant more than greeting the people who come to the door. And that makes sense. If you’ve always been told that you’re place was on the margins, on the outside, in the kitchen, on the back of the bus – if you’ve always been made to feel that you didn’t belong, that you we’re not welcome – why would you present yourself at the front door in the first place?
            The real practice of hospitality to those at the margins, to those on the outside, to those who have been considered low status, unclean, other begins with reaching out to them, going where they are, and letting them know that they are invited, and they are welcome.
            And that’s what we’re doing today, as a church, by participating in the Dallas Pride Parade. I know some see it as outreach, or evangelism, or membership development – and it is all that. But for me, the most important thing about participating in this parade is Christian hospitality. It’s reaching out beyond our circle to a group that has been told over and over by Christians, in the strongest of terms, that they are not accepted – and letting them know that here is a place they are welcome, as all are welcome. It’s doing more than saying the words, “open and affirming,” it’s taking action to live out those words as Jesus taught.
            And the harder a people have been pushed away, the harder we need to work to reach out to them. Now, in this time when the lives and rights of LGBT people have become a political football, when the vilest of rhetoric against them comes out of very high profile churches, now is an important time to meet LGBT people where they are, and express God’s love and Christ’s welcome.
Maybe some of those we will greet today will come to visit, maybe not. It’s about spiritual growth, not numerical growth.
            I became most aware of the hurdles LGBT people face in this allegedly Christian nation when I was in seminary. Mine was a nondenominational seminary, where we had students from across the theological and denominational spectrum. The only requirement was that in seminary discourse must remain civil and respectful. Most of the time that wasn’t an issue, because we didn’t discuss topics like homosexuality every day. But one day it came up – and I learned that two of my conservative Lutheran brethren sincerely believed not simply that the Bible disapproved of homosexuality, but that in their minds homosexuality was a greater sin than murder. They said it very civilly, and were genuinely concerned for the souls of their gay classmates, but that was it. If the death penalty is appropriate for murder – and they believed it was – it was appropriate for homosexuality as well.
            I couldn’t wrap my head around that. I still can’t. And when talk like that moves out into the public political discourse, as it has on some occasions in recent years, it makes me very sad, and very afraid for the soul of our country.
            Because the issue of welcome, of being willing to encounter, to receive, accept the other, those different from ourselves, those we may have been raised to believe are lesser or lower than ourselves, is at the heart of the challenges facing our world today.
            Bosnian-born theologian Miroslav Volf says, “It may not be too much to claim that the future of our world will depend on how we deal with identity and difference.” And certainly we can see the consequences of a failure in the events in the Middle East that have dominated the news this week. Seen the inability to encounter or welcome difference both in those who made the hateful anti-Islam video and those who would use it as an excuse for violence and murder. Using God as an excuse to harm others.
            But my faith teaches me that what we have most in common is more important than any artificial distinctions we would use to divide us – and what we have in common is our humanity, and that in rejecting another human being, we reject God.
            But like most spiritual disciplines it takes true Christian hospitality practice – and it must begin somewhere. Jesus Christ has shown us the way – and it is up to us, as Christians, to model that to the rest of the world.
            It must begin somewhere: with a child brought into the center of a group of adult male disciples, with greeting a stranger at the door, or in the pew behind you – by reaching out to a vilified community with a message of God’s love and welcome – by keeping hands and hearts open as we continue on our journey.
            Welcome – such a powerful word. It’s not just a word for doormats – it’s what it means to live out our faith. Welcome.  Amen.            

Monday, July 23, 2012

Franciscan Benediction


Some of you were asking about the Franciscan Benediction you heard in the service this past Sunday.  Here it is:

May God bless you with a restless discomfort
about easy answers, half-truths, and superficial relationships,
so that you may seek truth boldly and love deep within your heart.
May God bless you with holy anger
at injustice, oppression, and exploitation of people,
so that you may tirelessly work for justice, freedom, and peace among all people.
May God bless you with the gift of tears
to shed for those who suffer from pain, rejection, starvation, or the loss of all that they cherish,
so that you may reach out your hand to comfort them and transform their pain into joy.
May God bless you with enough foolishness
to believe that you really can make a difference in this world,
so that you are able, with God’s grace, to do what others claim cannot be done.  Amen.

Saturday, June 30, 2012

Hang Gliding with God


I came across this little poem, and thought about how often God does this. And when I read it, all I could think of was hang gliding -- hang gliding as a metaphor for our life with God.




Come to the edge, he said.
They said, We are afraid.
Come to the edge, he said.
They came.
He pushed them…
And they flew.

-Peter McWilliams
1949-2000

Tuesday, June 19, 2012

Prostitutes, Gardening, and Other Thoughts on God




As a child, I can remember my mother using a certain euphemism that I could never quite decode.  You may be familiar with it.  Mom referred to prostitution as "the oldest profession."  It wasn't until I was a teenager that I finally understood what she was talking about.  Next time, however, when I hear her use that expression, my smarty-pants reply will be, "WHAT?!  She's a GARDENER?!?!  How scandalous!!"  That's because if you pick up the Bible, and start reading at verse 1 chapter 1 of Genesis, and you start chugging along, you'll very soon find the answer to the question: What is the oldest profession?  It comes in Genensis 2:15,
"The Lord God took the man and put him in the garden of Eden to till and keep it," (NRSV).

Humans first job was to till the earth!  God made humans to be gardeners, but ever since we were driven East of Eden, more and more of us have lost our affinity with plants, the Earth, or practicing the real "oldest profession."  My husband Rob and I like to joke that we both have "black thumbs," but it's actually no joke at all.  The Humbles manage to kill just about every living thing we plant.  We are, however, able to keep much higher maintenance things like frou-frou dogs and small children alive, just not plants.  



Recently we went to North Haven Gardens to purchase 2 rosemary bushes because we were told that they were virtually no-maintenance, immortal plants in Texas.  "You can't kill these!" the cheerful lady who checked us out assured us.  A month later we returned sheepishly with the two brown bushes in trash bags to ask the staff where we went wrong.  They were aghast.  

Our second attempt at gardening involved another supposedly "indestructible" plant: asiatic jasmine.  (My mother curls her nose up at even the mention of asiatic jasmine because she says it spreads like wildfire and you can never get rid of it.  Sounds like our kinda plant then!)  We needed to fill a large bed in our front yard, so we bought a whole flat of it, and then Rob dug little holes and planted them in the ground a few inches apart just like the little flags said.

A month later, though we had been dutifully watering them daily, our jasmine wasn't "spreading like wildfire."  In fact, they looked pretty much the same as the day we planted them.  I couldn't figure out why.  So I got down on the ground to investigate.  I soon realized that our soil, though regularly watered, was so dense it was like rocks.  We hadn't thought to till the soil before we planted... duh!  The soil around the plants was packed so tightly that it was as if our jasmine plants were still inside little pots.  And the topsoil, when dried, felt like concrete, so the water wasn't able to permeate through to the roots!  

The only thing to do, then, was to go back with a little hand rake, and carefully till all around each plant without ripping its roots or digging it up.  The work was so tedious and it took much more time and effort than if I would have if I had just tilled it in the first place.  But as I was working, I got a rare chance to just *be* with my random thoughts.  Phrases like "prepare the ground" and "lay the groundwork" began floating into my consciousness, not as just archaic idioms, but this time as GENIUS and very practical pearls of wisdom.  So this is what they mean by "prepare the ground for _______!!"

...Then I started humming the Indigo Girls song "Hammer and a Nail," especially the part about how you "gotta tend the Earth if you want a rose!!"  The Indigo Girls also have many pearls of wisdom...

...And last (it probably should have been sooner because I am supposedly a minister) I started thinking about the garden of Eden, the first profession, all the other Biblical references to gardening and farming.  How could someone who went to seminary be such a bad gardener when the Bible is FILLED with tips like this one:
"Listen! A sower went out to sow. And as he sowed, some seed fell on the path, and the birds came and ate it up. Other seed fell on rocky ground, where it did not have much soil, and it sprang up quickly, since it had no depth of soil. And when the sun rose, it was scorched; and since it had no root, it withered away. Other seed fell among thorns, and the thorns grew up and choked it, and it yielded no grain. Other seed fell into good soil and brought forth grain, growing up and increasing and yielding thirty and sixty and a hundredfold.’ And he said, ‘Let anyone with ears to hear listen!" (Mark 4:3-9)
That's not only a great spiritual metaphor, there's lots of practical gardening advice packed into that one!

...And as I was tilling some more I thought about faith and trust and this passage in Job that says,
"ask the plants of the earth, and they will teach you; ... Who among all these does not know that the hand of the Lord has done this?"  
With my hands deep in the soil, I thought about the fact that I can plant plants, till soil, and water, but I cannot actually make anything grow.  Planting is an act of faith.  Only God knows how to spring a seed to life or push a flower up through the dirt.  So to witness a plant's growth seems like witnessing the quiet and miraculous work of God.  And it reminded me not only of the amazing things God does, but gave me peace about what I can't do.  I cannot mend a layperson's broken heart, I cannot prove the wideness of God's mercy to those who would put God in a box, and I cannot chisel my son into a high-achieving, benevolent, joyful, Christian man.  All I can do is lay groundwork, plant seeds, nurture, and pray that God provides the results.

I'm proud to say that our asiatic jasmine is starting to thrive after getting in touch with my primeval profession and a little gardening advice from the Bible. After all those spiritual epiphanies in my yard, I think I'll be getting in touch with my primeval profession a bit more often from now on, and I hope you do too!  My yard can certainly use it!  And every day, the green spreads a bit more, proof that God's mischievous fingers have been close by all the time, meddling in my garden when I'm not looking!


Tuesday, May 29, 2012

This past weekend, my family and I had the pleasure of accompanying

Everyone pitches in... except maybe Jude and Rev. Mamma!
Kristi Willis
Doug Willis
Michael Reinert
John Reinert
Jeremy Reinert
Kent Binfield
Tanis Binfield
Sharon Ouer

on a mission trip to our denomination's camp and conference center, Slumber Falls in New Braunfels, Texas.

Rev. Charles Stark, the camp's director, was recently able to purchase a very large telescope for the children at the summer camp to teach them astronomy.  The telescope that was purchased is much too large to move outside every night, and so it needed a permanent structure to protect it.  The structure to house it, however, would also need a roof that could roll away at night so the telescope could turn and search the sky.  We had our work cut out for us!  But with the help of our incredibly capable volunteers, in just a few days we had this amazing structure built!

Jude eating a Micky Mouse Pancake made by John Reinert
I can't credit for the amazing work that was done.  I wasn't able to spend much time at all at the work site.  My 16-month-old son, Jude, has had tenacious separation anxiety the past few months, and it seems to be getting worse in spite of our efforts.  Despite all the literature we've read, advice we've received, and tactics we've tried, leaving him with someone else is pretty cruel... not so much to Jude, but to whoever we leave him with.  Our strong-willed son has been known to scream at the top of his lungs until he ends up making himself barf or his babysitter deaf.  So in the moments Jude was down for a nap, or could be distracted by a cup of yogurt or a bottle of bubbles, I helped Michael with a of cooking, dishes, and cleaning up.  My parents even stopped by on Saturday with the intention of taking the baby for a few hours while I worked on the site, but Jude was having none of it.  Instead my mom ended up working for a couple of hours on the site!  That first work day was particularly hot, so we all cooled off with the crew in the pool in the afternoon.

Sunday morning worship at Vesper Point
Sunday morning we all worshipped together at "Vesper Point," a beautiful spot perched right on a cliff overlooking the Guadelupe.  It was a peaceful and memorable way to celebrate Pentecost.


And so before I preached my short sermon Sunday morning, I had been thinking about Pentecost -- the birthday of the Church -- the day that Jesus sent the Holy Spirit to be with us as our comforter, and I thought about how what we were doing fit in so well with this church holiday.  What better way to celebrate the birthday of the Church than to leave our building, leave all our church accessories and committees and worries behind, and go somewhere we can just BE the Church?  Because the Church is not a building or a place or an institution or a tradition or a club or a denomination -- the Church is a group of people, filled with the Holy Spirit, who are on a mission.  And that's what we were this past weekend.  We were just a little family, filled with the Holy Spirit, on a mission to spread God's love to the people we met along the way, to our brother Rev. Stark, and to all the kids that would soon come to summer camp, look up to the heavens with this new telescope, and feel the awesome power of God's love.

So that's what I'm taking back from New Braunfels this past weekend.  I'm taking back the reminder that despite all the dreams, and plans, and to-do lists I have for our church, I need to continually come back to the questions: What is Church?  Who are we?  What would Jesus have us be?

And I think I catch a glimpse of the answer in this beautiful image of you all below: the image of a church family working together as a team in the midst of God's gorgeous creation -- working hard so that, through the science of astronomy, the fun of stargazing with dear friends, and witnessing the amazing beauty and complexity of God's Creation,  God's children may come to know Christ.

The rolling roof is up!



Wednesday, May 23, 2012

Emergence

I received a beautiful gift the other day -- a Monarch butterfly chrysalis waiting to open. Finally, one morning I saw it had just emerged, so I took it outside to set it free.

It took longer than I thought for her wings to dry. She hung on the twig. Moved around to perch in different positions. Tried her wings. Hung there a while more. It took a few hours. But once she made up it's mind she was ready -- she took off! Fast!

Her first flight was only marginally successful -- she landed quickly in the grass. I was afraid the dog would step on her, so I put my finger down and she latched on. She sat there on my hand for a moment, as if catching her breath, then flew away up into the trees.

It was magical and I am reminded how powerful a symbol this is for our life of faith. I recently found this prayer that seemed appropriate:


A Chrysalis of Grace


God

give us

a chrysalis of grace

wrapped around

our lives
& our dreams

& around

our past.
And in the dark & lonely
sometimes
remind us

to change

& grow
as we wait

& wait
& wait

& wonder.
Open our eyes
to see a peak
of light

as bright

breaks through.
Then finally
finally
but gently
slowly

push us
into the future
to emerge
a new creature
transformed
to realize

these wings
are meant

to fly.
Amen
.

by Tracey Marx